Today was hot! We went to the zoo and it is so nice getting out and having fun with Aiden but it makes me miss Neal. He loved doing stuff with us and we always did things as a family. I take lots of pictures for him but its not the same. I'm torn between wanting to go back to california and wanting to stay here with family. I love being here but being here means Neal isn't here. Neal being here means I live far away from family. Aiden misses his daddy but he will miss his best friend when we move back. I wish I was able to make everyone happy. Oh the life of the military!